Pinkred smile and a slight thunderbird in the heart

If you knew my words, as you said once.

If you knew me as you once told me, i would never feel lonely or fallen apart like i have been doing the past time.

I was lonely once, i was resqued once, but my resque operation somebody bossed over, became my lonelyness again as it were once.

Relax i have been here a very long time, just becouse i thought people knew me, but the time showed me i was wrong, or was it them who were so off the record?

Listen to my heart, it speaks a language that only one know and understands, the one who loves me rightfully and truthfully.

Those who never understands me shall neither come to me say they love me.

Ask after the only key that was made for my heart, ask for it and maybe you shall recieve it, or maybe not.

It all depends on who you are, and if you can sing the song my heart sings out.

Let there be love, let there be songs, but only for those who deserves it.

I am ther one that comes walking on that road with my briefcase, i stay a while, but when the sun goes up one beautiful morning i will be long way off from you, and you and you...

Im just a traveller, dont miss me, becouse when i once left, i never return, just forget me thats the best.

Laughs dont last more then a day, not more then a eternity. They only are like me, they come and go.

Smile your still alive, smile and the whole world smile at you.

I left a message on my answering machine, it told you to look away at the sun, all i did was bring bad clouds to the life you called misery.

I was the misery, never you.

Im just a traveller, one day im here second im long gone, somewhere in this world, somewhere in the world, right now i am in London, but tomorrow i will be in San fransisco...

I am not rich, but if you listen closer, you will find a rich song my heart sings, but only if you are the one who understands me, then you will understand the lyrics.

Smile please... smile becouse you will make me happy, i only want people to smile.

I bring bad times, iknow. One day i will die, one day. And if you just smile for once, then iknow i still exists.

I never wanted fights, i never wanted harm, but my devils made me angry.

Want a peace of me in your life, then please.... Smile, then i will smile.

When the sky is pink red, and the wind is calm and you feel happyness in your heart, then look up in the sky and you will know that i was there, just right next to you.

When the sky is pinkred, and the wind is calm.... then you know i was there....

Smile, and i will smile......

A lonely time

Summer is soon here, i use to know that one.

Winter and fall went pass me like that dream i hardly knew...

It all almost sounded like a dream i once dreamed.

Ive been told i was among company, i know that i never fitted in.

Travelling to London or Sam Diego, still iknew were Russia was.

Ive been doing some soul searching, finding that high tower i never found on the forreign ground.

Some one like you...

Some one...

There has been a reason for me to say i was all around the world, maybe i was.

Lately i do have realized that the best has yet to come.

I never felt sattisfyed over you, not quite not totally, not ever.

I only knew that i went inside that tunnel of light, and never found my self out.

It all happend so quick, i tryed to find out why i wanted to shut that love song on the radio.

Iknow that i cant come to the phone, iknow that i shutted the phone for some reason.

I am much stronger them you ever realized, and i know that you were still there of some reason.

Let me change that callendar day i wrote the words in.

Every song reminds me bout a time, aswell as it makes me forgett.

Sad dont belong in this story, sadness doesent fly any diffrent way then your smile once did.

Tired with wishes, done with songs.

Why cant i turn of that radio...

So lonely inside of me, i have been that now for a long while. I tryed to explain for you, but you never knew.

Broken angel, or broken word, i still know i did what i could, but my word was so hard for you to understand.

Your not lonely, becouse if you were you would know what lonelyness was, i have been there and i am still there.

She danced that very early day in september

She danced on waves of the sand, she dived in the sea among the dolphins, never looking moore beautiful then this day.

Smiling when she saw at me, at the sea and the waves.

Allmost like it was her last day on earth, cherishing the last moment God had given her.

Cherishing all that she had to be given after all years she had lived.

She danced, flew over the beach that caressed her feets that was all naked.

It allmost felt like a dream to see her run down the sand beach, flowers couldent been more beautiful, nor could the songs from the birds...

There she was, that very early day, there she was so happy and full of life.

Maybe i dreamed this day, maybe i was awake, but please understand that what ever it was... I never wanted to leave...

Never did i want to leave....

... She danced that same day she past away...

Just somebody

In the mystic river, you hiding your guilt..

When you said your so happy you could die, tellin im so right in your company...

In the mystic river you hiding your guilt...

In the end i told you im glad its over, but my guilt was as deep as your river.

You dident have to change that number, or keep it.

Now your just somebody that i use to know...

In the end of the past you described to be so screwed up strange...

It was always something i had done, dont hang up on just somebody you use to know.

Friends collect the diamonds of fear you wear.

Now your just somebody i use to know, still fading like that one.

In the mystic river, you hide your fears and guilt deep down in the colderness.

Telling my self that im so happy i could die, i died that very early sunday morning.

Put roses on my grave and they decomposes as the feelings your friends develoaped for you.

World spins around, just like your thoughts did.

You belive that it was always something i had done, still you couldent been more wrong then you were when you cutted me of.

You dident have to stand so low as my guilt, nor high as my pride.

Now your just somebody i use to know...

That i use to know.....

A claim from mother god and father nature

A child is born in to this world, without clothes without any tools, yet do we even speak our mothers language.

But still, we are so loved, by our fathers and mothers.

We grow up with rules, with promisses, with love and hate.

Somewhere there we learn that we have to take own decissions, take a step back to watch the world we are involved in.

We learn that the game of life is all bout loosing and winning. Some of us see a win as a lost, and a lost as a gain, a winning situation.

When we get old we know what wrong we did before and even that we dont have powers to lift a rock, we do have power to change what we did wrong and teach our children that what we did was wrong.

Sometimes you win sometimes you loose, thats a part of the life we were given, but that dont meen that if we loose once, we always carry our head under our arm.

Fenix the bird was risen once from the ashes, its the same with us, we need to rise from the ashes.

Find a way to deal with the losses and deal with the game we gain in. Dont be reckless with the win you gain, dont be spoiled and think your no good if you loose, admitt thats only life thats trying to teach you how to be strong.

Admitting its failiers is a sign of strength, being true to your self is a sign of respect towards to you. All that dont neacessery meen you love your self.

The important think is not to love your self, its being honest to your self and respecting your own integrity.

Help others, be there for others even if it means to be all that to strangers, God wanted us to help our fellow men on earth, the world will go under if people stop helping each other.

We dont learn to know more people if we dont dare to look the world in the eyes and say: I will be there to people even how badly i will be hurt, i still belive in the goodness god planted on this earth once.

I dont ask for anything then a belife that i exist and are taked seriously.Thats all i claim of this world.

among the valleys and farms, i shall walk my path

I stand on the valleys of scottland, looking out over the fields that god made.

Green soft grass waving to the world as the wind passes by.

Air soft and clear, fills my lungs with passion to the sons that shade blood for every man that stood up for every valley and farm.

I stand here, now on the valley that once were the battle field between the englishman and scottish warriors....

The brittanians and the wales stood for there word.

The king took his right and gave him the virginnity from my wife, he took her life that morning when i was bout to be that man who the King claimed him...

I stand here reminding my self why i still are strong, why i rised from the ashes, it was all becouse i never gave up. i fought for every right the man has, for every right the woman has to have.

i stand one last time here, watching over the valleys and remembering my past...

I will be gone now, far from here far from every fellow that knew me once...

I am gone now, and i turned my way and walked the long path that life and god will give me, where i end up what ever will happen to me, iknow i did it all becouse i was strong....

Snow fell from a hated sky in a cold lonely world

A world without humans.

Time without fast forward or rewind.

Air like a thick slime rinning down the throat and never reaching the stomach...

A world without humans, a perfect world.

My shouting echoes in the air, soundwaves bounces between the fallen buildings and cars empty standing on the roads, theres no one there to answer my shouting.

A world like i want it to be, only me and some breeze from the calm wind that caresses my cheek.

Down below the corps are starting to whisper to me, tempting me to their tea party.

I am listenning, observing with a smile in my mind.

Every step i take echoes in the wind, every breath take sounds like the bell from Big Ben in noon time.

I dont ask for time anymore, becouse the time stands still, even if its dark or sunny.

No more stressing, no more habits of must do things. No more stupid people who never wanted to get the wierd one seriously.

Its a tea party for only me.

Memorys remains calm and alive, from people that existed once.

Let me live, let me die, i no longer care thou i am alone now, in a non existing world below gods paradise.

God, yea God made me and deported me to mother earth so he could forget me slowly but true.

My pockets are as empty as gods love to me. I dare god, i love god, i challenge god.

I bow infront of god feets in respect of him and a knowledge to me that not even god can defeat me if i dont want.

He made me, i created me, people develoaped me. I became one of a kind, i became that reptile in the water that seeks a victime to kill, i became that predator that waited for you to make a mistake so i could hunt you down... I became the one that survived a time where time stood still and god forgot me.

Corps asking me to a tea party, i tell them to wait another year or two, for aslong as iknow, im living la vida loca now, alone in a cold world where only i exist.

I think god can wait another thousend years before he remembers me again.

I am now, i am here, i am nobody still i am somebody.

I survived me, i survived the death of the gods, but i dident survive the teeths of love, it destroyed me.

Now i hate, now i eat the rotten thoughts, now i am a living dead, enjoy it or not i might survive this episode of part 4 in my life.

Snow fell today, i hated it.......