Its not up to me to find out....

"It was we who fought for our countryes, it was we who fought for what we belive that lost the land we once deared to love..."

Many times i wonder where i am, many times i wondered if i walk the right path in life.
People never understood the rising of my new day, people liked to misunderstand my word.
I never asked you to hold my heart, i never asked you to come, i only asked you to talk with clean tounge.

Even the slightest word and sentence can cut your tounge in 2 parts and shake like it does at a snake.
Snakes tounge is in two parts, and it shakes when it talks.
I sleep on my pillow that is clean from misery, iknow my tounge is whole. Thou i speak only from my heart and dont hide the slightest of story to be told.

Its so easy to hide a thing just for the beliving it can save something that rocks your heart, but eventually it will all be confest infront of god, and then it can never be saved. Thats why we get time from god to tell those things to those who means the world to us.

People hide the smallest thing, just becouse they think it can save something...
The bitter sweet taste of truth is that it never saves anything, it only makes it worser, and in the end you loose harder then you imagined.

A small thing for you, but a huge thing for me. A huge thing for me, a small thing for you...
Does it matter? Is it right to hide small things? Is it right to hide big things?
The answer is always NO!

I dont do things that i hate you doing. I dont sit and say one thing and do another thing.
Just becouse i belive in the truth between two people...
If i say: I dont do that... Then i really mean that, i dont do that, not even the slightest.
If i keep this spirit alive from my side, then i count on that i am wellcomed in the same way.
How can iknow, i can only trust the open word...
Trust a open word, yeah that is hard when you know that the open word has before ment a open lie to me.

I tell you a story from my life, and this is true story.
-I once knew a girl, who i was with.
Everything was good, until i realized that everything she did, everything she said, was 50% true and 50% a lie.
She never saw that texting people and saying: no i dont do that i told you that already...
That sentence i belived in with my whole heart.
But as i said, when we confess infront of god, by that when the truth comes out, then it will hurt.
Yea it did hurt, I DUMPED HER...

Just becouse of that small thing, and it was not even lovers that she texted... IT WAS HER FRIENDS.
But she hided that from me just becouse she thought that telling me she no longer talk to them, and does that behind my back, made me dump her. WHY???

Becouse if i cant trust her in that small thing, then i cant trust her in bigger things. I just couldent trust her...
Its not up to me to find out the truth, its for her TO TELL ME before it goes too far, before the days goes before the years goes and i dont know anything bout that.

Even how much i love, i can never be with a girl who chooses to hide even the smallest thing....
I can love i can be kind but if i am treated diffrently then i treat her, then.... BYE BYE FOR GOOD!!!!

Its not up to me to find out the truth, its for her to tell me directly....